Avatar Posted by bipolargirl 220 days ago (Question)
So i got a phycological evaluation a few months ago and just last week i went to this meeting were i got to read the repot which stated that i have generalized anxiety disorder and signs of OCD. but the support that i have gotten at my school is really not what i was looking for. It makes me feel really stupid and inferrer. I hate the feeling it gives me! I also hate it when everyone is staring at me when the special educator come into my study hall to make sure i have all my homework done and done right. Now i also have to go to therapy twice a week and it sucks. I really don't know what to do! One minute i'm being treated like the good normal student i am the next to a student that no teacher trusts or respects! Please help me i don't know what to do, its like my every move is being watched by someone. And i tried to tell my parents but they keep saying the school knows whats best and there suggestion and ideas are all part of the process. But i really don't like it. I'd tell the school but i have a really hard time talking to people. So please tell me what i should do!


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Written by Edahn 219 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Can you talk to the special educator and ask him/her if you can schedule the check-up? I would try that.

Your school may not be aware of how to interpret these tests. It's not limited to your school, but really a feature of our culture. We look to make CORRECTIONS to people and view them (and ourselves) as DAMAGED and in need of repair. Lots of therapists and self-help gurus carry this mentality and prey on people's insecurities.

But there's some really awesome good news: you SEE that! I'm actually really impressed. You sense that there's something wrong with the suggestion that you're damaged, and you're absolutely right. The path to overcoming these things lies in self-acceptance and self-love (or self-support) rather than self-rejection and blame.

So here's what I think. I think you should stick with what you intuitively know is right and true. I even think you should continue reading about and contemplating what you've discovered. Like I said, I think you've hit on something BIG and you should keep exploring that idea. Try and help the school see what they're doing if you can. But if you can't, it's okay, because you know the truth. You know that even if THEY think and treat you as damaged, that THEIR thoughts are NOT yours, and that you know what's up. Take pride in that knowledge and let it be a guide for you. Believe in it. That way not only will their words and actions not affect you as bad, but you can start to help others down that path.

A great book that I always recommend is called "Radical Acceptance" by Tara Brach which deals with feeling unworthy and self-acceptance. If you're looking for something more related to GAD, you can try "Calming Your Anxious Mind" by Brantley. Insight meditation has been shown to especially help GAD.

Believe in yourself.

Edahn

Written by bellacutie 219 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Hi Bipolargirl,

I know you have been troubled for a while now, because you've posted here several times, not knowing what's wrong with you. I'm glad you got the results of your psych. evaluation. At least now you have an answer to why you're feeling this way. But the good news is that your condition is treatable. It's important that your parents, the doctors and the school are on the same page.

I also understand how it's hard for you to get used to the special educator. I think you should try to work with them because they are there to help you. You weren't feeling well and went to the doctors. So now they are doing what they think is best for you. Alot of kids in my daughters school get special education help and it's no big deal really. Good luck.

Written by Clyde 212 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

I agree that the school is doing what it can to help you out, and it does probably feel stifling to you, but can you talk to the educator and others and see what can be done to help you feel better with the situation?

Best,

Clyde


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