I'm 35, mother of a 13 yr. old son, recently re-married to an older man. Have a family background of 'not so normal' family that always keeps problems 'in the family.' My son is ADHD, ODD, etc, and grew up around drug use and domestic violence. About 2 years ago, we got out and moved where noone knew us to start over. For awhile things got a lot better for us... We adopted a hands off policy, set 'normal rules' for the house, and started learning boundaries. My health has always been not so great, have messed up discs in my back and hypertension. Also, have always been a nervous person, and not one to socialize. Both of these things, not being properly treated because only 'crazy people have shrinks' is one thing that lead me to recreational drugs and self-medicating. My problem now is because of my past 'addictive behaviors' the pshchiatrist doesn't want to medically treat me at all! I have a severe anxiety disorder that sends me into panic attacks often(my son loves to 'push my buttons too!) He also says i'm bipolar as well and says we have to get my moods stabilized, since he's not doing anything i'd like to know how? My son fights me every step of the way and does exactly the opposite of what i try to do. My husband, being older, seems to feel a kind of 'culture shock.' We have been married about 6 months now. things were ok till he was diagnosed with emphesema and he's been off work. Between the two of them, I have no peace! They constantly argue and want me to take sides...i can't even go to the bathroom anymore without there being a 'meltdown!' I know we all have problems but i've told them thatI can't take anymore! If it doesn't involve me then I shouldn't have to be there as a mediator. Between doctors, therapists, appointments, insurance companies, bills, etc...I don't know how much more I can take! Twice in the last week I have nearly hit my son in the face because he was throwing things, and I've screamed at them both!!! I finally got an appointment with a different psychiatrist but it's not until July 2nd...HELP!!!