I'm really trying to stop cutting but I get so mad at myself 'cause I do it anyway, way too often. and then I'm really upset so of course I wanna cut... I don't know what to do when I'm upset except cut. and I can tell my bestie's patience is running out but I still can't stop. I'm such an idiot... and I'm gonna be a friendless idiot if I don't find something else to do...*bangs head on wall* stupid girl!