Avatar Posted by younoulvme 305 days ago (Question)
This is hard to explain but here it goes...

Have you ever had the feeling of walking on tile with a glass cup and have a erge to drop it knowing it will break. Lately I have been getting these weird impulses and I do not know why. I have also been having severe anxiety 24/7 and loss of sleep if sleep at all. I feel exhausted yet wired and iritable. I have been getting angry and frustrated really easily.I'm always on edge and cant enjoy things I once did. everytime I pray my mind battles with scary things. I am contantly thinking and my thoughts are always racing with the what if's of life. I feel miserable and its scaring me really bad. I have been feeling like this 3 days after having I had my son 6 months ago and Im in a new marriage and feel like I cant enjoy it. these mood swings are driving me nuts because at times I can be ok. It's getting really bad to the point where I'm always in fear. I feel panic and anx . Anything gets me startled. Im feeling on edge really bad.I get bouts of rage, anything ticks me.Evertime I hear the baby cry I get frustrated. I sometimes have anxiety attacks that are so bad that I feel out of body. I cant concentrate.( I'm a christian and love the lord)Whats really been bothering me is that everytime I pray I feel like something evil is blocking me.When I pray my mind battles with good and evil... it's scary and it blocks me from the lord, almost in a possesive way.When I get these attacks I feel if everything I am thinking is backwards but it could just be me over thinking. I would never hurt myself but at times my mind wonders off thinking about the what ifs of dying and I picture my self dying or family getting hurt and I get scared. My mind is constanly racing and its scaring me. I wont drive because Im afraid of having a attack in the car while im driving and get in a car wreck with the baby. I'm so stressed from this to the point my body hurts and I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack, my head hurts,my body hurts, and I feel faint, my vision is always blurry,my head arms and calves tingle kinda knumbing. I dont know what to do... this is hurting my relationship with my husband. I feel he doesnt understand me. Please help!!Because of all of this I feel I cant bond with my son. I dont know what this is, is this just a severe case of anxiety. It's been getting worse as time goes on.


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Written by younoulvme 305 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

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Written by bp2hope 305 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Hi, I can relate to much of what you've described. I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time. A lot of it could be related to the hormonal changes from after going through childbirth (I know my mother had a particularly difficult time after having me years ago).YES, I do believe it is mainly SEVERE Anxiety: your physical symptoms, your thoughts, your sleep problems... all point to that. I urge you to please seek treatment for this immediately rather than let it continue any longer; you really will be able to experience a significant decrease in all the symptoms. There are highly-skilled Christian counselors that could help you learn to manage the anxiety, and probably medication would be beneficial since it seems so severe. I will try to write back if I find the website that lists Christian counselors and where they are located. for many areas of the country. I think you will discover that as your anxiety is treated, the thought problems you described with in your prayer life will fade as well. (That is what I've experience)As a Christian, I would like to encourage you that God loves you and understands what you are going through, and will protect you spiritually. I pray you will experience His peace today and that He will guide you as you seek help for your anxieties!

Written by Clyde 304 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

I agree with bp2hope, it could be hormonal changes that explain your anxiety.

Have you tried talking to a Christian counselor?

Best,

Clyde

Written by LaylaNadda 277 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Hi!

O.k, yes, I can totally relate. Everything you described I have experienced, and more. I used to be on heavy duty anti-depressants/sedatives, and was also a hard core drug addict. After getting sober,and "battling" mind numbing anxiety and soul chilling panic attacks, I found some peace through 12 step fellowships and prayer and meditation. When I had my son, the feeling of impending doom and fear of being "possessed" intensified. The more I drew to God, and found JESUS, the stronger the attacks against me grew, and the deeper my torment. I questioned my very own sanity, and yet doctors and therapists found me quite stable and rational save my deep anxiety. I began to investigate what was really going on, and investigate other people's similar experiences, now and throughout history. There is a powerful and cleverally hidden Demonic war against God's children going on (trust me-it took me a very looong time to get over my prejudice against how this sounds) what I also discovered is the ONLY thing more powerful is Christ. I am 100% completely free, and cured, and "disorder" free. If I could give you a snapshot of how truely tormented and knotted and complicated my insides were, compared to how I am now, and how truely stable and emotionally balanced I am, you would cry for joy at what's possible for you. You are under severe demonic attack. The disorders you have are manifestations of those attacks, what dr.s and meds do are simply to try and control the symptoms of those attacks..like making yourself hold back the sneeze, while completely ignoring the virus causing your sneezing. They simply try to "lock you up" inside, you might get some relief, but you're not free. You can be. God has given you all authority and Power over all the forces of evil, and darkness. Over the centuries, we've tried to rename what we cannot explain or comprehend with our arrogant agnostic reason..delusional/schizo/bipolar/ depression/postpartum/ ALL rooted in Demonic oppression/possession and influence. There is a way out. Whether you're on medication or free of that, you can be delivered. There are very specific things you can do, like real deliverance prayer. I'm sorry that you have suffered so much, and I'm here to tell you that you can be FREE. Completely, and happy, and joyous. But you need to see the bigger picture here, and why you're under attack, and how to protect yourself! Pray about it. Ask in Jesus' name, to convict your heart of the TRUTH, ask him to confirm in you, if what I'm saying is true. Then you will be ready to take a stand, and get freed, and eventually help others as well. you can contact me at ishiwoman@hotmail.com, if you want my help -Layla


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