Avatar Posted by xxx 491 days ago (Question)
ive been going through very low and depressed moods for quite sometime now, i think roughly about a year or two. alot of the times i will be very low, when i am, it would usualy last a week or sometimes even a few, i've attemtpted commiting suicide when i was younger, and even now i sometimes think about suicide, i'd wonder about jumping off a bridge usually or even jumping out of the window but now i feel i can control that thought and stop myself, the thoughts do still occur but i try to keep strong and control them. other times i will feel very adgitated and feel everything within me race. i tend to get anoyed then i will become very hyper active, i cant control my thoughts and they keep racing, i speak very fast too and i get tongue tiwsted, i tend to talk alot at such times and i come up with wild idea's, sudden thoughts, i like travelling when i feel hyper active, i tend to just travel anywhere, i've always wanted to experience how it feel's to feel lost then make my journey back home, when hyper active, that thought just seems very exciting and thriving to me. sometimes i can barely sleep, i have to force myself to go to sleep and if i do tend to stay awake throughout a few days, i'm still hyper active, i feel as if i can achieve almost anything, gives me a 'buzz' if u like. other times i oversleep and thats usually when im feeling low, i'd cry myself to sleep, sometimes when im crying i feel like im still mourning from the loss of my friend, i guess i try to find an excuse for my tears coz sometimes i dont see why i cry, i just like to sit in one place with no ambition and find life meaningless, i tend to lose concentration alot too and get confused, i like to gaze at anything and i tend to fix my concentration on it, i use this to my advantage though because i do poetry and creative writing, i like to think of it more as a positive rather than a negative trait. i've always felt neglected though, and i always sought a reason to feel depressed, but i think maybe its just because of my age, because when i once tried to speak to ym doctor about it, she just laughed and asked if anything was bothering me at work, that actually made me feel worthless and low too.


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Written by lee 490 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

you seem like a very emotionally person and you obviously need to seek help i know it can be hard sometimes and it's an easy thing talking to someone about how you really feel but also letting it out can do world's of good so my advise is be brave and make an appointment to start making steps faward.

Written by bp2hope 490 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

I agree, I hope you will be brave and take the steps to seek help. From your description you seem to Definitely have a lot of symptoms of a Bipolar disorder (this is a mood disorder where one's moods, energy levels, etc. can alternate between extreme highs and lows, such as you've been describing so well. I have Bipolar II and can certainly relate to the problems with changes in mood, speed of thought, energy levels, etc. you have described.) The good news is you don't have to continue to suffer at the mercy of the mood swings; I'm glad you have resisted the suicidal thoughts, but I know the depressions are miserable and the "highs" can be uncomfortable, too and feel out of control. I urge you to find someone who will listen to you and take your symptoms seriously: tell them "both sides" what you experience so you can have the optimal chance for an accurate diagnostic evaluation. The sooner you can get help, the better your life can be from now on. While you're taking steps to improve your well-being, remember that you are a very special person with many unique gifts to offer to the world. You deserve the best in life and I wish you well.

Written by Clyde 490 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Yes, I do think you should seek a therapists help. Not all doctors are idiots who laugh at you when you have a problem. Some do try to help you.

You do seem like you have so many issues, and as bp2Hope stated, that quicker you get help, the better, cause you will feel better sooner.

Hope for the best for you.

Best,

Clyde


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