Avatar Posted by younoulvme 257 days ago (Question)
I have been dealing with bizare feeling and emotions lately. I know it's Bi polar. I was diagnosed Bi Polar along time ago and didnt believe it. I went to the hospital due to cutting and was diagnosed Bi polar. To get to the story I was on, lexapro, abilify, lithium...anywho I had a close to fatel reaction to abilify (you know all the things they warn you about in the commercial).I Stopped the meds due to being scared out of them. I have ben fine and wondered why I ever even cut my self till now. After y son was born I was diagnosed with post partum and anxiety. I just fail to see my issues falling completely into that catagory. I have tried anti dep and every time I do I get realllly sick in th mind and have severe anxiety attacks to where I think Im dying and feel tingly things crawling behind my neck and arms. I stoped all the meds due to it being worse.I confused why lexapro worked when I took it last time but not this time? I dont know... I'm just looking at the world differently even. I'm a emotional rollercoaster. also am getting startling images at times and I dont undertand where my mind got that.I always thinking about random things and have racing thoughts.I have to literally fight my mind out of scary thoughts. I had a dream that I had to fight my mind out of suicide and it seemed so real and scared me so bad.I'm scared of me waking up out of my sleep like sleep walking and doing it not meaning to. Anyways I'm miserable. I drank a week ago thinking it would ease my mind and I did allot of stupid things that I have never done.. like grabbed my husbands moms boobs and make remarks on her silent boob job and make a screamimg ass out of my self with my husband.No one seems to get me. Anyways My husband swears up and down I'm bi polar.If I didnt believe the doc before well now I do. Sometimes I can be fine and forget about feeling this way and then I end up feeling emotional and every time it's worse. I know I should go to the doc but I'm going through this tired faze and cant get myself to do it. I have it in my head to call the doc but never do. I went from sleeping 2 hours a night to on and off and to being really tired all day to the point everything seems like a dream.When people see me they see a happy face and dont realize how I feel but then sometimes it's hard not to notice. Sorry about the misspelling i'm just cawt up at the moment.


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Written by Edahn 257 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

I don't know if giving birth can trigger bipolar, but...why not? Stress can bring out bipolar symptoms if you're predisposed to it, and you did go through anxiety and post-partum depression, so I think it makes sense. You should consult a professional, though, because s/he can determine what's going on and treat you appropriately. That's especially important with bipolar because, as I recall, bipolar is treated with different meds than depression.

The real issue is why you aren't going to the doctor. Is there something that you're afraid of? Maybe going to the doctor means you have to be more responsible for your behavior and more guarded? Maybe you associate going to the doctor with "slowing down" or with depression? Maybe the depression has just sucked your motivation dry? Or maybe the depression is making you think getting help is impossible and that your situation is hopeless? All of those can be overcome with objectivity and just FORCING yourself to do it, even if it feels weird or burdensome. If you know, deep down, that the right thing to do is to seek help, then stop browsing on the internet, pick up the phone, and call your doctor now.

:)

Written by bellacutie 257 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Hi,

I would agree with Edahn that you have to go to your doctor. I realize you'e apprehensive because of the bad reactions to medications you've had. I would also ask your doctor to do a complete hormonal bloodwork on you. It could be your hormones are out of whack. You need a good doctor to accurately diagnose you and set out a treatment plan. You shouldn't be drinling this will just complicate things.

I wouldn't worry about the sleep walking- most people don't harm themselves. If you are having very drastic thoughts especially about your child then this would indicate post-partum psychosis.

Giving birth and taking care of a baby is very hard on women's bodies and mental state. Take care of yourself by eating well and moderate exercise and getting enough rest. Don't be afraid to ask for help from trusted family members. Best of luck to you and your family make sure you get the help you need to be strrong.

Written by Clyde 254 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Stress does add to all kinds of mental health issues.

Please call your doctor. The browsing on the internet is cool, but it is NOT the same thing, NOT AT ALL.

Best,

Clyde


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