Avatar Posted by bluelove 340 days ago (Question)
Three years ago i had an injury and as a result of that I now have Neuropathy in both of my legs and feet. I'm in pain all day. It's hard for me to sit, stand, walk, and even when i lay down I'm still in pain. The pain is unbearable. Two years ago I shut down and I stop going outside, I sleep and lay in bed all day, i barely eat and I stopped interacting with everyone. I'm sad, happy, angry, crying, and yelling. I refuse to go around people because i never know how I am going to be. I talk to myself all the time and answer my questions as if i'm having a conversation with someone else. I cut myself and can't stop. I feel like i don't want to live and often think about killing myself. i feel useless. It's like I'm two different people all within minutes. My brain has all of these terrible thoughts. One minute i'm okay then just like that i snap and i'm not myself anymore. This has been an ongoing occurance. My doctor said I'm borderline biopolar and i refuse to accept that. What's wrong with me why am i up and down all within minutes everyday. It's like i stepped outside my body and someone has taken over and i have no control. Am I biopolar HELP ME!!!!!


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Written by TheFallOfAnEmpireBiscuit 339 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Sup bluelove..

as katrina has rightly said.. it looks like you have bipolar.. nothing big.. just get some mood stabilisers and you should be fine..

Good luck

--Buscuit

Written by twiggylaine 337 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Hi! I sometimes find random pages or scribblings when rambling through old notebooks and things that remind me of how long I've been dealing with these same issues. It was by complete chance today, but while reading your post about what you are dealing with, it was like reading a passage of one of my days. I'm going on over 10 years of this, but of course, as I'm sure you already know or are beginning to know, there is so much more to it than you feel you can really figure out how to 'fix' or cope with. It always seems like a cycle of some kind but it always keeps progressing. I'm a 29 yr. old single white female who is/was creative, artistic, funny, loving,etc... and I have been dealing with ALL of your 'listed' issues for over 11 years now, as well as the continual compounding of others as life progresses, because with age comes more... stuff... :). I'm very knowledgeable of some (most actually) of the questions you have, and not in any way to disrespect the other two very considerate people who responded, there is a much longer list of 'possibilities' that should be acknowledged and taken into account before you make a definitive decision on treatment/s. Sometimes a temporary short term type of treatment is best while finding the root of the problem/s which could be anything from physical, emotional, psychological or combinations of them...because many problems have several of the same symptoms. Anyway, the only reason I even typed on this site is because I woke up this morning, as I do so many mornings, completely and utterly enraged and extremely depressed and self-abusive on a few levels. Some brief periods of the day (sometimes minutes, hours...) it's like I'm the exact opposite. I have no desire to type out all I would like to discuss w/ you because it's just to much to reveal to everyone else that may see it. But I understand you, for what I know anyway. I've pushed people away and am pushing people away because they just don't or can't help, and i feel like I don't know myself as who I used to or want to be. I am definitely like two complete opposite people caught in one, and I feel I've just become a product of life... but I want to be a product of ME again. I am a very caring and understanding and intelligent person, and even though I prefer to talk to myself, because I'm always the only one who really understands and am right :), I want to give you my email address. Reaching out to people is hard for me to do, but your "issues" really "struck a cord" as some say. Feel free to contact me if you want to discuss anything further. But trust me...I also understand if you don't...No offense will be taken. I hope you and I both can find a way to figure things out and overcome. These 'instabilities' have a terrible way of draining "life force". Best wishes. Take Care.

~jaime w.

I'm not too familiar with this site, but I think you can check out my profile or whatever info I filled out, also. jaime_weiland@yahoo.com is my other personal email.

Written by whoru 69 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

well I do have an answer just want to say thank you for that.because as I was reading that.I was like that is me all the way.And I really thou it was just me.I still don't understand,why I'm like that.but sometime I just cann't help myself.It get to the point where I cann't breath (like now)it just take my breath away.I'm 26 year old and I don't want to live like this anymore.ok that enought share n 4 2day.

Written by Clyde 328 days ago Rating: 1 | Rate Answer: + -

It does sound a lot like bipolar. Have you talked to a therapist about this yet?

Best,

Clyde


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