Im a single mom of two school-aged kids. Ive been a single parent for 10 years, and i cant say that life has been easy ever since. I read about bipolar disorder, im not sure if i have it, but i surely have the symptom of mood swing. It can be very bad at some time.
The last time was yesterday. I havent been in a good mood for 2 weeks or so. My 8y.o. girl came to me, she was upset about something and started to whine. I was in a very bad condition, so i got furious to her at the end, after she'd whined for more than 20min.
I was at my weakest condition, i didnt have any control of my self at all. and I said a really bad thing to her... i said that i'd kill her if she didnt stop crying! Gosh, thats a terrible thing to say, isnt it? :(
i regretted my self at the very moment. deeply regret myself. but i know it was too late, she already heard the bad thing from her mum. i apologized to her, said that i wasnt serious about it, that i felt sorry, and it was because i was in a bad condition.
if only i can erase that thing from her memories. i dont know how much damage i will make from that single line.. gosh, is there anything i can do? at least to reduce the bad effect of my bad saying?? please please anybody..
i dont know what she has in mind now, about her mum having criminal minds. i need to know everything i can do that might reduce the effect.. im a real deep depression now.
i cant stop crying about this stupid thing ive done..
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