I've been suffering from depression for 7 yrs & an eating disorder for 4. I've recently tried recovery for my eating disorder but failed. I've been trying for years to recover from depression but I just can't do it. I've been hospitalised 10 times; 6 for depression & 4 for my eating disorder (anorexia nervosa - type a) I'm on 150mg of effexor but I don't feel it's doing anything. I've been on about 6 different medications & they all didn't work. I think they're just placebos. I've almost lost all hope to getting better, I'm exhausted all the time & I've started collapsing at work because of it. I can't function normally, a simple task like having a shower takes so much out of me. everythings going in slow motion. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this, I'm tired of pretending I'm okay. I'm starting to believe I never will be. ='( Is there any hope? =(
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Hi, I know exactly how you feel. I've been in therapy for three years and am getting ready to quit because I'm no better than when I started, I'm worse actually. I've tried everything but nothing seems to help. I tried several medications, Effexor of which I was on the longest. I too think they're a crock, none of them did anything for me. When I finally got off it (and all other meds too) after a year and a half I found out it was actually exacerbating some of the symptoms I had. I too find mundane tasks too much to bear, sometimes I can't even stand the monotony of brushing my teeth and washing my face every day. I don't feel like there's any hope for me either. I've been trying so hard and have gotten nowhere after all that therapy. My symptoms are so bad I can't work anymore and I'm running out of money but I know if I go back to work it will just make me want to kill myself again even more (already tried it twice, obviously didn't succeed unfortunately). I too don't know where to turn or what to do for help. I've tried everything but nothing is working. I think I'm going to be this way forever.
Hi there Cara,
It definitely sounds like major depressive disorder, for sure. It can also be because you may not be eating as much, and wearing yourself out.
150 mgs is not that strong for just one pill. You sound like, the way you are talking, you either need stronger or more meds, or you need to be hospitalized in a different hospital.
What kind of hospitalization? Is this one where you are committed for three days and then they send you home? If that is the case, you really need to get yourself in for longer, if possible.
You have to help take control of your own situation. Only then can there be hope for you.
Call back to the hospitals where you were at, see about extended stay. Talk to your pdoc and see about your meds and explain to him what you explained to us, and see what can happen.
Best,
Clyde