HI, I have borderline personality disorder and have attempted suicide in the past. I'm on medication and have been in therapy for 2 years, and I'm still struggling with thoughts of suicide. Its so frustrating. The thoughts seem so automatic. I don't have any suicidal plans, but I want the thoughts to go away. Any suggestions?
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hi, i have also been diagnosed with BPD and was suicidal. i havent had therapy and went on mirtazipine for 6 months. i have had counselling which i found highlighted why there were parts of my personality that could appear to be narcisstic or anti social and why. this helped me to feel empowered and realise that i could be in control of my own environment and take away the things that were makin me feel suicidal. all though the dianosis of bpd is for life its a very broad prognosis that anyone can fall into. the major thing that has really helped though is me believeing that i am a nice person and excepting that i can't control everything. find a passion, do something u have always wanted to do but believed that u couldn't, have a goal. all these things really do help.
HI bean,
Thank you for your response. Of course I'm still in counseling and we had gone over my thoughts. It doesn't seem to go away. But I like your suggestion to find something I'm passionate about. I haven't had anything in awhile that I have a passion for. Things have been gray and blah for awhile. Probably why I am depressed. But you are right,I can't control thoughts, they are going to come anyway. I would like to set some goals, I think that would help.
I'm borderline, have been in therapy for three years, have tried to die twice, and still want to die all the time. I'm guessing suicidal thoughts will never go away, at least not for me. And I'm beginning to think therapy isn't going to help with any of that either. Yes, of course my therapist knows and he gets very angry whenever I try to kill myself. So angry that I don't even feel comfortable telling him when I go off and try to do things to die anymore. I'd be curious to hear if talking about them any in therapy helps. Unfortunately, it hasn't for me.