I am almost constantly thinking about life and death. I dread waking up in the mornings sometimes. I get angry for no reason whatsoever, especially st school. I get angered or depressed easily. I seem to think a lot about my meaning in life. Why am I here? What am I doing? Is there a real purpose for me? I don't like to be around people unless I can easily relate to them, which is still kind of difficult for me. I get upset if people don't meet my standards-like what I expect them to be. I've harmed myself intentionally, and even when it's not intentional, I don't mind the pain. Not even the pain of others. I guess you could say I'm a bit of a sadist. I don't like to be blamed though. I like blood.
I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should be concerned or if it's a normal thing for teenagers. I'm 13. I just want to know if anyone believes that i should be concerend or had any idea. My friend was just diagnosed with depression too so i know that im not too young. im so confused.
I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should be concerned or if it's a normal thing for teenagers. I'm 13. I just want to know if anyone believes that i should be concerend or had any idea. My friend was just diagnosed with depression too so i know that im not too young. im so confused.
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I like blood too. I know how you feel, though i don't think i can help much since i have no idea what to do either. I guess this is more of an empathetic post, and i just want to let you know that you're not alone in your sufferings.
This sounds, to me, like maybe you did pick up part of the depression your friend has; it is possible. You might want to see a counselor about depression, and start talking about self-injury. It doesn't sound like you're sucked into self-injury quite yet, but it sounds like if you don't get help, you will get sucked in, and that is something you do NOT want (i speak from experiance).
Best of luck,
Leanne
What you are going through seems quite normal. A lot of teenagers go through the same sort of things.
However, that doesn't mean you should ignore it. I think you should get help. Talk to someone, a school counselor or a peer (someone older than you) that you trust, and just tell them what you are feeling.
It is also possible that because your friend was diagnosed with depression, you may have picked it up as well. Things like that seem to rub off on people your age. (Sorry to say it that way, but I have to be blunt.) When one person says, "I'm depressed," usually other people will pick up on it and start to "feel" the same way, even though they aren't actually sad. Confusing? Yeah, I agree.
Just go talk to someone that you can trust. Peer, parent(s), school counselor, teacher, coach, family doctor, etc.
Hope you feel better soon. Don't worry, I've been there too. Trust me, it does get better. It will not be easy, but life will get better. Life always has it's ups and downs, but its the bad parts of life that make the good parts of life so good. Just hang in there.
Take care.
Sarah
Oh, yeah, my friend--please seek help from a therapist or a doc. Seems like you are going through a lot of issues in your life..and you might want to discuss your Self-Injury issues with them also.
Best,
Clyde