I praise God because I am a suicide survivor. I committed suicide by overdosing 5 years ago in May. I have made a long, painful recovery. I look in the mirror and see a completely different woman than who overdosed in a time of complete despair. But it's been 5 years, how long will I grieve on the anniversary or my darkest days? Like clockwork the week leading up to my attempt I become teary, feel intense pain, and an overwhelming sadness...I have so much to live for, I have done so much to change who I am etc.....how long will I grieve?