Okay, I`ve been trying to search for help for months now and haven`t gotten anywhere. Some of you probably heard of me once before on a previous thread of mine and I really appreciated for everyone who helped. Now I`m having another issue. My name is john and I`m 17 years old attending high school. first of all, I`m having a problem communicating with people and I`ve never dealt with this problem before. I try to be apart from everyone because of this fear inside me of interacting with them including my family. I don`t ever remember having this fear before, and even if I give it a try to speak with someone, my mind goes completely blank, is as if it went into a automatic shutdown. Second, I don`t think that i`m expressing myself like a 17 year old should, I don`t know why I feel as if I don`t have the intelligence for my proper age. It`s only because when it comes to solutions or thinking for an idea that would resolve the problem, it never comes into mind. I find myself forgetting words that I shouldn`t which is why I`m having trouble in communicating with just anybody even if it is online(through a chat server. All of this issues has started months ago and now just recently I felt lonely,disgraceful about myself because I have nothing to offer to my family, I can`t think of what i`ve had accomplished throughout all this years and only see myself going nowhere from this point on. I have been wanting to get a gf, first I created a relationship online with a girl last year, we spoked to each other through a cam, sent pictures, love letters, etc.. and Now she is away from my life only because I stopped speaking with her because I found myself in a predicament that I couldn`t communicate with anyone. I`,ve made a new relationship now with a girl in the same grade as me in the high school I attend and I`m afraid to loose her because of this problem that I`m having because everytime we meet it`s almost quiet when before I used to speak alot and be outgoing. All of the problems that I`m facing right now had led me to be really depressed and being a non-stable emotional person. From time to time my mood changes from being happy to being angry, to being sad,etc..and i`ve decided to come here today to seek for help because a couple of hours ago I was crying my eyes out without an explanation feeling suicidal, seeing how I was worthless, only a person taking space in this world because I can`t help my family, I don`t have a job, what bothers me the most is that everything I used to like had change, the way I used to think had changed, I cannot think straight, I don`t know what to from this point forward:(:(:(. PLease, if you find it in your heart to help me with advices on what to do or how should I manage to alleviate this pain,... thank you,
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