Nothing seems worth it anymore. I've lost all my important people and its been ripping me apart. We don't speak anymore, they've been completely ripped out of my life, a thousand miles away. My family is strict and demanding, school is the only word that is used around here. I only find solace in sleep. People talking to me feels like a burden and school is getting less and less important to me. It's not worth it. I feel like dying. Before I thought it was stupid but now I'm starting to feel so alone and empty. An eternal darkness would be better. The only thing that is stopping me is the pain and the status of my family. I wouldn't want them to pretend to grieve over me when I'm gone and have a suicidal kid etched in the family name. My life feels like a hole that is hollow and empty. I can't enjoy anything anymore. Please help me. I'm scared.