Avatar Posted by Jems 27 days ago (Question)
I really want to commit suicide. Im also in mild depression. My dad practically beats me, not physically, but emotionally. In sports, even if i play as best as i can, even if we win, i still get yelled at. I remember this one time when we lost our basketball game really badly, but we went relaly supposed to win because the team we played were a league or two up, so yea, of course they beat us!! I mean, our coach even congradualted us (which is a big surprise considering our coach NEVER congradualtes us) in the locker room. Then i had to leave with my dad in the truck, and he was acting all nice and everything until we got into the car. Then he started yelling at me because apperantly it was MY fault we lost(AND FYI, I PLAYED VERY GOOD). I tried to tell him the game wasnt actually a game, but then he slapped me and said dont interrupt, but he had stopped talking!! And i was only like 9 or 10 so i was crying. Im 12 now, but since i was 5, ive wanted to die, and ive always thought i was ugly. I have awesome(and lots) friends and they always tell me not to kill myself because they really like me a lot. They also cant believe i want to commit suicide because i always seem so happy at school and everywhere else, but in my mind, im depressed. I dont relaly invite anyone over unless they really wanna come over(part of depression btw/fyi). Some people just think im joking when i say that because im usually smiling and happy with joy.
So what should i do? Please, an answer would help because i can never find one..


Answers

Written by bellacutie 27 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

It sounds like your Dad needs to learn a lesson about good sportmanship. My daughter is in Karate and several other sports - she has won many trophies and medals but I never get upset if she doesn't win. I teach my girls it's not all about winning - it's important to try your best and to have fun. It's okay if you don't win all the time. What does your mom think?? I suppose you can't tell him how you feel??

I think you should talk with school counsellors and your coach - maybe he could talk with your dad.

I want you to know - regardless of how bad you think life is - suicide isn't the solution. You won't be living with your dad forever. Please tell an adult how you're feeling. You don't deserve to be treated this way. Here is a good link and I hope things improve for you.

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Written by Clyde 25 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Please do not do it. You can also call 1-800-SUICIDE, when your Dad is not around and talk to them about what is going on.

I WOULD NOT RECOMMEND TALKING TO THE COACH TO TALK TO YOUR DAD, as he may end up being worse on you because of it.

I do recommend talking to an adult, or your school counselor, but make sure they dont talk to your Dad about it, at least until you are sure you can emotionally and physically handle it.

Best,

Clyde


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