Help!!! I am only 12 years old and I want to commit suicide. It's mostly from my parents. My mom mostly. She always gives my sister all the credit. Today I was sick with strep, and my mom pulled me around town when it was raining and I was feeling miserable. So one of the places we went was the bookstore, and my mom bought 3 books with MY money! So I told her that they were mine and I could do what I want with them now since I paid for them. My mom said she would pay me back. That still isnt fair, but oh well. She wont remember to pay me back. So then we went to Starbucks and my throat was freakin hurting horribly. I didnt see anything I wanted at Starbucks because I didnt feel well. So I told her I didnt want anything. She ordered me ice coffee and expected me to drink it. I HATE coffee. So I told her I didnt want it and she freaked out. I did so much more stuff, and when the day was over, we went home. My mom told my dad (who by the way doesnt give a care about anything, and he will drag me off of the top of my bunk bed by my arm, landing on my head... its happened before!) that I didnt feel well and he tried to stick a knife down my throat. I started crying and he told me to shut up and do my homework. So now I feel like commiting suicide. I know that this may not seem like a lot to some people, but when youre sick with strep and have anger mangagment problems, its easy to pull every last hair off of your head.
I dont deserve to live. apparently my mom is so much better than me so she can take my place. nobody will miss me. i barley have any friends. nobody knows me. i dont care if anybody notices im gone. nobody cares about me and i know it. i hate myself. my life is full of hate. i have alredy ripped half of the hair off of my head.
somebody please help me. im so scared. i cant help but get angry at every little thing. then my parents get mad at me and it starts up again. I HATE MYSELF SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME. NOBODY CARES AND NOBODY EVER WILL.
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