Hi, I know this is a very common subject, but I have to get things off my chest...

I am 26 yrs old, single, no kids, bsn in nursing, good job, nice home...to others this may seem like the perfect life, but for some reason it is opposite for me. I have become increasingly unhappy with my life to the point where I am getting afraid. Nothing makes me sincerly happy anymore. I have never been the type of person to share my feelings with others because of past experiences, I am a very quiet, introverted person, although I wish I weren't. I am the type of person that has a smile on my face and somewhat outgoing while at work, making everything seem ok, but when I'm home or around strangers I am a completely different person, it is almost like I completely shut down.
I was never physically abused as a child, I come from a two parent home, I am the youngest of three kids. I love my older sister and brother dearly, but I find myself becoming envious because they are both very outgoing, able to make friends easily with anyone, while I am the complete opposite, I often seem "angry" to others. I know alot of my problems stem from emotional abuse that I have not properly dealt with for the past 15-20yrs, I am one of those people that holds everything in because I feel I have no one to talk to that understands or cares. I have my family and a set few friends, but I feel so alone, I don't know what to do to change this, or what I could possibly do to bring some happiness in my life, I am a god-fearing woman and I try to put my faith in God, but sometimes it's hard. I would just really love to find true happiness in my life, but I don't see it happening anytime soon...alright, enough rambling,thanks for listening :)


Answers


ratio16180
1436 days ago
Aggie02 - Your post sounds very similar to my situation. I'm age 24, also single (had only one relationship), and no children. I have a secure, good-paying job in a very friendly, caring environment.

At work, I put my all in my (mostly independent) projects. People see that I always smile and am very kind. At home, I'm quiet and tend to not go anywhere. Sorry to hear about your emotional abuse, perhaps some talk therapy could help.



aggie02
1435 days ago
Thanks guys for the response, I never thought about a life coach, definetly something I will look into



bella
1435 days ago
I agree with others and I like the idea of a life coach. Since you say you're the kind who keeps your emotions in, I think it's natural for you to feel unhappy.

You're also in a job, where you take care of others needs, but you're forgeting to take care of your own. I think it's easy to become stuck in the monotany of working and coming home - sleeping and then going to work again.

Most of society is taught to strive for a good job, nice house etc, etc, - but it's also important to nurture yourself. What do you like to do in your spare time and how would you like your life to look at, 10 yrs from now? Do you see yourself in a relationship or with kids??

I hear in your post, you put up a brave front and smile, but this can end up making you feel untrue to yourself. What do you do when you're not working? Any interesting hobbies or passions? I also recommend exercising -this would make you feel more energetic, which would in turn inspire you. You would also benefit from having a good person to talk to, about anything you wish - someone who you don't have to put on a happy front for. Best of luck.



MountainLion
1435 days ago
You seem to be doing well. As said above, be true to yourself. Try working on a creative project. Join a Club, take walks outdoors. Veriety is the spice of life.