Hi i am 15 years old and have had depression for 3 and a half years or so. I have been on and off medication and in and out of counseling. But recently i have been thinking. Is there more to me. I feel like i try and be sick all of the time. I know i used to hurt my self for attention. I was neglected as a child but every few days or weeks i will think something like the following " I should pretend i have a seizure. I will have to research it to see if doctors can tell if you have had one " so i went and researched it. Or something like this " I am going to get heaps of pain killers and anti depressants take the limit of each scatter some on the floor. Then eat some flour so when i go to the hospital for an overdose and have to get my stomach pumped it looks like i took heaps of pills" Seriously i think these sorts of things. I know that i do things for attention, my mother knows. But is it possible i have munchausen syndrome. I mean it sounds like i do. Every time i go to a counselor they will ask me " Do you really want to be well? " and of course my answer is always yes, and at those times i believe it is but what if subconsciously i want to be unwell? I just don't know what else to do... Please help me out. Oh and my latest thought was i am having my eyes checked tomorrow should i pretend i can't see properly so i get glasses. Thanks if you can help. Bye
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