I feel as tho Im a horrible person now and I dont deserve anything. All I wanted was to be happy and have a family and I ruined everything. Im in a relationship of 8 yrs and im 26 with a beautiful 17 mth old boy. I think my bf loves me bit I have cheates on him a few times and most recently with his friend. We broke up for a week and then he ce back home after finding that out. I know it was a huge mistake I love him so much. Last nite he brought everything about about him being stressed, and eveeything ive dine and bills ect.. He.said I ruined his life , he didnt want to talk about anything and just wanted me to shut up. Lil over a week ago I had a preg termination done, I was 4 mths and.1 week with a boy. I know he di dnt want the preg and we wouldnt of been financially ready. I have his lil foot prints. Im so sad and depressed about everything. My father ise to hit me.as a and molested me and had me do things more than a couple times when I was around.9 urs old. I just want my bf to show me that he loves me. I want to spend my life with him but I thik I already everythi.g up already. I feel like he doesnt want me.around and im tires of crying and feeling this .


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bella
873 days ago
Hi - I'm sorry you're struggling. Is your BF the father of your 17 month old and have you been diagnosed with anything? Do you know why you would behave impulsively and cheat? Have you been more upset since the birth of your son - if so maybe you're suffering postpartum depression. All you can do is, concentrate of taking care of yourself, your son and learn from your mistakes. Do you have a job - ideally its best for you to be financially independent so you're not dependent on men. You also should seek counseling to deal with the abuse you suffered as a child. I hope things improve for you soon.



Chemar
873 days ago
Hi

you said you recently had a positive pregnancy test? Are you going to have that baby? What do you mean by you have his "lil footprints"?



jacobsmommy26
873 days ago
I terminated almost two Weeks ago : /



jacobsmommy26
873 days ago
We arent sure if my 17 mth old is his, I broke up with him and then we got back together. He was there when he was born and treats him as his own. Im on medication for anxiety that put me into panic attacks a few yrs ago and landed me in bed for 3 mths, I couldnt even walk around with out having one, it all came out of no where, my entire body was shaking for a week beforw I was able to have anything to make my body chill out. I do work but its not the best job I work during the day as a dancer where atleast I know ill b able to take care of bills when they come up or are behind. I also havent had my own car since I was 19 that was the last time I even drove anything.