I feel as tho Im a horrible person now and I dont deserve anything. All I wanted was to be happy and have a family and I ruined everything. Im in a relationship of 8 yrs and im 26 with a beautiful 17 mth old boy. I think my bf loves me bit I have cheates on him a few times and most recently with his friend. We broke up for a week and then he ce back home after finding that out. I know it was a huge mistake I love him so much. Last nite he brought everything about about him being stressed, and eveeything ive dine and bills ect.. He.said I ruined his life , he didnt want to talk about anything and just wanted me to shut up. Lil over a week ago I had a preg termination done, I was 4 mths and.1 week with a boy. I know he di dnt want the preg and we wouldnt of been financially ready. I have his lil foot prints. Im so sad and depressed about everything. My father ise to hit me.as a and molested me and had me do things more than a couple times when I was around.9 urs old. I just want my bf to show me that he loves me. I want to spend my life with him but I thik I already everythi.g up already. I feel like he doesnt want me.around and im tires of crying and feeling this .