Okay well first off I don't classify myself as emo or anything i'm my own person that is if only I were allowed to be me... I love rock and roll and punk screamo. I love changing my hair at the moment I'm going purple (my parents kinda know, not really). But my sisters are really preppy and they have a lot of friends but me.. I don't really talk I stay in my room and at school I stay to myself that is unless you cross me! My parents are like hardcore christans and they just discovered that i'm not saved... but my real problem is i'm not really allowed to express myself which I feel is WRONG because your dening someone the right to be who they really are.... they ask me where that girl they once knew was but i was like 11 then and i'm 16 now I know who I wanna be and I know what that it's wrong for me to have to hide myself.. My sisters make fun of me because i'm not like them my parents won't talk about this subject i'm trying to get them to understand but they refuse to listen.... this is the reason I started cutting my parents tell me how wrong the person I really am is... I can take the talk if it where from random people but my own family... I just want them to hear me, my suicide attempt wasn't enough? No matter what I say they won't listen I just feel like i'm worthless, and that's how they make me feel! I've hated myself to the point were I began to cut my own skin because I just can't be that little girl anymore.. she isn't me I guess I just grew up... please help me make sense of this? my counslar said theres a difference between wanting to kill your sself and wanting to feel pain btw.. I am NOT suicidal!