Avatar Posted by dyprositos 109 days ago (Question)
I'm 22 years old, and I don't remember a time I was happy.

I started cutting myself when I was 11 years old, but I self-harmed before that.

Lately, I've been feeling more and more depressed and I think about suicide on a daily basis.

I'm sick of being this way.

I've read that treatment such as counseling is only useful if the person really wants to get better.

But I'm not sure if I want to get better. I don't know who I would be if I wasn't miserable, if I didn't hurt myself. I don't want to waste anyone's time if it's just going to be some futile exercise in self-pity. Should I even bother trying to get help, if I'm not sure I can change?


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Written by Adia 109 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

You should.... trust me you say you sound like your tired of being that way but in a way it sounds like you WANT to (and thats a whole other issue) YEs get help, or things'll be worse. If you commit suicide, you'll leave behind poeple who WILL feel guilty and wonder what they could have done to save you.

Written by Edahn 109 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

If you don't know who would be if you weren't miserable, I would think that's enough of a reason to get motivated about therapy. Sometimes, with depression, you just need to get into therapy and start making some changes. Your motivation is part of the problem and there are things you can do to remind yourself why you're worth investing in. Please go find a therapist. Even if you don't believe in your future yet, I do. I am asking you sincerely to get help TODAY and will be checking this for an update.

Edahn

Written by SuperInferior 109 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

The reason YOU wouldn't do well in counselling or anyother type of therapy is because you are too depressed.

If it's mild depression, counselling is fine.

It its moderate to severe you'll need antidepressants just to get you back up to a relatively normal mood.

Then you can try therapy.

You wont feel yourself on meds or maybe after theapry if you have the tendency to blame everything on anything that isnt you.

If im more excitable or irritable or depressed than usual I'll blame my antidepressants. However, its those things you notice about yourself that confirm that you really are you. Like, its a trait of mine I have only noticed since Ive been on meds and I know now that its always been there.

Go to your doctor and talk it out first. Sometimes a doctor can act as a therapist just to hear how your doing every couple of weeks and make notes of your moods.

If need be, meds or therapy, or alternativelt and ideally, eclectic therapy (basically both) can be discussed.

Going to your gp isnt making any desicions but its seeing your options so go for that as soon as possible.

Written by bellacutie 109 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

I agree you sound very depressed and you should definately go to your doctor. It sounds like you've had this for a long time and stuck in this negative frame of mind. I think you're tired of living like this and even though you feel you can't change, you may naturally change once you try medication and therapy. Some depressions are organic, meaning that you could be lacking in seritonan or your brain chemistry needs balancing. None of this is your fault - you're sick the same way someone who is diabetic is sick. Once doctors find out how to make you feel better, then you be surprised how your thinking will change. Please take a chance and reach out for help, so you can live a full life. All the best, hugs Bella.

Written by Clyde 109 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Yes, please seek help immediately. You have probably had this for quite a while, and you do sound like you are tired of living in a bad, depressed mood all the time.

Please seek help with a doctor soon.

Best,

Clyde

Written by coachllama 109 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Yes I think you should seep help. If you don't it is possible you could kill yourself and hurt your loved ones.

Best of luck,

Adam


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