Avatar Posted by tabitha 63 days ago (Question)
I'm currently a student, I finish very soon. I've been a student on and off for about 10 years. I failed my alevels at school, dropped off a college course a few months into it and started a nursing course, I failed part of this and dropped off the nursing course, I then worked in a shopp for two years before starting a foundation science course which although i failed it, allowed me to get on to a biology degree. I scrapped a 3rd in this, did very badly at a job in pharmaceuticals, worked in and office for a year and have now gone back to uni to do the graduate version of the nursing course. Although I finish soon I have no idea what i want to do with it. Theres nothing I feel passionate about? I've never had many friends, I had a group at school but fell out with them in my final year, I've always had a few friends at work or uni but when I move, although I try and keep in touch, they tend not to. I've never had a boyfriend and only had sex once when my friends spiked my drink and set me up. Apparently no means hold me down and do it harder. This year everything came to a head when I became stressed trying to deal with financial problems. My GP diagnosed depression and i had some councelling and antidepressants, which quite honestly did nothing. I've always dieted and have been buliemic/starving myself on off since my degree course.It got worse on this course as i dropped my weight by 3st. I started cutting a year ago, scaring my arms and legs, and although i've always taken co-codamol for headaches, I now take more than the dose daily to sleep. My family are lovely and supportive, they've bent over backward to help me stay at uni. I just don't understand why I feel like this. Why others seem to get on with life when I just see it as pointless,lonely and a massive failure. How do i change it before I really do myself some harm? I just don't know how I'm supposed to like myself when I hate myself so much?


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Written by Chemar 60 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Hi

are you still seeing a therapist to help you work thru all this?

if not, that really would be the best foundation to start on so that you can have someone qualified continuing to help you

I hope things get better for you

Written by Clyde 47 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Does the therapist know about you taking this medication so you can sleep? Not good at all. Be extremely careful with drugs and sedation!

You really need to talk to the therapist about all of this. Dont mess with your life much longer...take charge and become happy!

Best,

Clyde


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