I am so tired of living. I feel like i.m a failure at life. I cant keep a job for more than a few years. I cannot keep a steady relationship. everyday I think to myself "how much more of this am i going to take before i end it. I have alot of wonderful people in my life, but I just can.t talk to them about what is going on in my head. The only thing that has kept me from doing it already is that it will hurt my family,but the more I think about it the more I think they would be better off without me. I just cant think of any reason to go on. I know I need help but I dont know where to go. I have no insurance,I have no job. I dont know what to do but end it all. I am so tired of hurting.