I started dating this guy a few weeks ago (three as of tomorrow but who's counting) but I'm finding it really difficult. I mean at first I was so happy and I know I do like him and care about him, but somethings still bothering me. I don't know if it has to do with an incident that happened nearly two years ago when an acquaintance of mine sexually assault me. I think it might have to do with that.
I know for a fact my boyfriend would never be like this guy, he's just very sweet and kind, but I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling. I keep thinking that the memory... what that guy did has ruined me. It's been almost two years, but it's still affecting my relationship now.
My boyfriend knows what happened, but we've never really talked about it in detail or anything. Sometimes I wonder how he feels about it... or if he sees me differently since I told him. I get weird like thinking he won't want to date me anymore and I don't like that, but then there are sometimes when I don't know if the whole relationship is worth it. I'm so confused. Does anyone have any advice for me? I really like this guy and I don't want us to have to break up because of something in my past.
Thank you.
I know for a fact my boyfriend would never be like this guy, he's just very sweet and kind, but I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling. I keep thinking that the memory... what that guy did has ruined me. It's been almost two years, but it's still affecting my relationship now.
My boyfriend knows what happened, but we've never really talked about it in detail or anything. Sometimes I wonder how he feels about it... or if he sees me differently since I told him. I get weird like thinking he won't want to date me anymore and I don't like that, but then there are sometimes when I don't know if the whole relationship is worth it. I'm so confused. Does anyone have any advice for me? I really like this guy and I don't want us to have to break up because of something in my past.
Thank you.
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From personal experience, I can relate to your boyfriend. I dated a girl for almost two years who was assaulted by her last boyfriend and thought that it would make a difference in our relationship too. When she finally came out to me about it, I wasn't upset about it in the least. If anything, it brought us closer because I wanted to help her overcome it and I believe that I did just that. Our relationship ended because she had to move about 4 states away with her parents so we didn't get to see each other anymore but if I were you, I would definitely talk to him about it and tell him your fears. The outcome might surprise you.
Hi there...
You are very courageous...I would definitely talk to him in detail about it. It is part of his relationship too, right? And if you feel that he would never hurt or harm you, and that he cares about you as well--you definitely need to discuss it with him.
If not, there will always be that discourse between the two of you, and he and you will feel that you cannot tell everything. That is not a good way to start a relationship.
Let him know more, talk to him about it. If you are too uncomfortable about somethings, there are things you dont have to discuss, but without getting it out, are you getting anywhere?
Best,
Clyde