Avatar Posted by dukem 85 days ago (Question)
this is very hard for me to explain. when i was a kid, up to about 7th grade i had a great life. i was one of the most popular kids, i was always happy, and life was just great. during this point in time, i didnt do any drugs and my parents were still together. ever since then ive noticed that i have changed alot. im still somewhat popular. not like i used to be but i have friends.and school is usually okay. i have noticed the changes and have been able to controll them pretty good, but now its getting worse. ill get to the problems. im tierd all the time. maybe 2 mornings out of a year i wake up and feel refreshed and rested. otherwise im always tierd. its getting harder and harder for me to focus on something. just because i lose interest in it. id say more than half the people i see i despise for some reason.at home i usually sit in my room on the computer. i have stopped watching tv. i hardly ever do it. mainly i feel very tierd,lazy,lose interest in stuff, mood swings. no actuall phyical pain. never get headaches or any kind of pains. i actually stay in good shape. often i take my dogs on hikes and exercise almost daily. my grades have been slipping because i cant focus on the teacher very long.i havent done homework in forever. i feel like i dont have enough energy to. i loose interest and basically say i dont give a fuck. i used to have quite a bit of girl friends. but i havent had one in a year. im 15, a sophmore at my high school. i dont like to go to parties either. or meet/talk to people i dont know very well. i get about 8-9 hours of sleep each night. my parents got divorcied at the begging of this last summer. i dont see my dad as much but the divorce hasnt affected me that much. i hardley ever think about it. i live with my mom. on weekends i do stuff with my dad like fishing. i feel kind of down all the time. depressed. i hardly ever drink. i dont like it. but i smoke marijuana alot. daily. i started smoking heavily twords the end of my freshman year. i am starting to do it by myself alot more than usuall. i almost prefer to smoke alone. i still smoke with friends weekly though. it makes me happy and feel great. basically if i have weed on my ill smoke 2-5 bowls per day. there does come times when i dont smoke because i dont have enough money. but those only last 2-4 days.im high all the time cus my weed is really strong. i dont play sports on teams anymore like i used to. but me and my friends play basketball every once and a while and i workout probly 5 times a week. ive just been feeling depressed and tierd alot. i feel llike im wasting my time alot when im sitting around. i dont know if this makes much sense or if i am properly telling you my problems. i hope someone understands. my minds just so crazy anymore. i feel like i think in a different mind state then everybody else. not just when im high, all the time.maybe if i stop smoking i will feel better? i definitly believe if i have to stop i can. since ive been feeling so crappy i quit for a week. but i felt like crap all the time. i never get sick. im rarley happy about stuff. i dont know. what do you think is going on in my mind? and how should i live a happier better life.
p.s. i try to eat healthy and usually do. have great parents. have great pets.live in a nice house. I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME.im not even sure if i can describe it. its like my minds racing all the time. PLEASE HELP.


Answers


bella
84 days ago
Hi - you explained yourself very well and included all the details. Smoking weed on a regular basic can make a person feel apathetic and unmotivated. Experts also state regular weed smoking can make 'some' more susceptible to schizophrenia - at the very least it makes you less motivated.

You're also at the age, where real life problems are more apparent, compared to when you were a kid - this can seem intimidating. Hows your sleeping hours? Avoid staying up late and changing your sleep schedule. You should be exercising almost everyday and avoid being on the computer too much. How do you feel if you don't smoke - are you trying to cover up any feelings?
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