hello,
I'm a 17 year old living in family of five. only child at home at the moment. brother and sister are older and living away.
hating life at the moment, family life school and that.
i am such a closed book. i never express any of my deep down feeling. I'm very private and that. to be honest i like a perfect life to society. and society plays a hug role in my life. cause who i am and where i live and Wat school i go too i extremely important and to the public eye i like the perfect happy life.
that is not so true Wat so ever, in actual fact i have the worst relationship with my father. yes he gives me everything i want. but he doesn't understand that not want i want always. my father is in voled in everything. and is never home or has time to speed with us. he is always so busy. running around and organizing shit event and thing for clubs and sporting clubs. also at the same time my family are not going so well financially. this is so em brassing and i worried so much about it. my mum and dad fight off-en over money and the fact he is never home. i think he might be having an affair with his sectary. but who noes. I'm hating his to be honest. at the moment. he is always so negative and mean towards everything I'm in voled with. cause i have no interest in sport which he hates about me. and I'm a little snobby to be fully honest and i always have the best and that. and that is his fault cause he has allowed that. but he is blind and doesn't seemed to see that the club cause so much trouble. and I'm so worried he will go broke cause i couldn't stand the embarrassment of been broke. i can be very self centered i realize.
and school is shit. i hate it. I'm not the smartest but I'm expected to me. for some reason. i want to be free and make my own money in a way. and i want to be supported with me decision and my life. to have positive back up from my father. my mum is fantastic and is just lovely and she has it shit living with him.
I'm looking at life and see it easy to just quick fully. to hurt him.
help me i hate being like this
I'm a 17 year old living in family of five. only child at home at the moment. brother and sister are older and living away.
hating life at the moment, family life school and that.
i am such a closed book. i never express any of my deep down feeling. I'm very private and that. to be honest i like a perfect life to society. and society plays a hug role in my life. cause who i am and where i live and Wat school i go too i extremely important and to the public eye i like the perfect happy life.
that is not so true Wat so ever, in actual fact i have the worst relationship with my father. yes he gives me everything i want. but he doesn't understand that not want i want always. my father is in voled in everything. and is never home or has time to speed with us. he is always so busy. running around and organizing shit event and thing for clubs and sporting clubs. also at the same time my family are not going so well financially. this is so em brassing and i worried so much about it. my mum and dad fight off-en over money and the fact he is never home. i think he might be having an affair with his sectary. but who noes. I'm hating his to be honest. at the moment. he is always so negative and mean towards everything I'm in voled with. cause i have no interest in sport which he hates about me. and I'm a little snobby to be fully honest and i always have the best and that. and that is his fault cause he has allowed that. but he is blind and doesn't seemed to see that the club cause so much trouble. and I'm so worried he will go broke cause i couldn't stand the embarrassment of been broke. i can be very self centered i realize.
and school is shit. i hate it. I'm not the smartest but I'm expected to me. for some reason. i want to be free and make my own money in a way. and i want to be supported with me decision and my life. to have positive back up from my father. my mum is fantastic and is just lovely and she has it shit living with him.
I'm looking at life and see it easy to just quick fully. to hurt him.
help me i hate being like this
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I hope u read this soon.... I am 28 years old and I know EXACTLY how u feel. I mean the same family situation, small town snobby bullshit and all the same highschool stupid stuff you daily go through. Look, first, remember this, you need to find at least ONE thing you are really into and focus all your energy into that. For me it was art. I took every art class and club i could find. and my parents bitched, but i reminded them it was better than sitting on my ass watching tv. they finally shut up after about three months. second, i know u have at least one friend. spill your guts and i mean everything! you'll feel better i promise. next parents argue and that is their deal. i know its hard to ignore and not feel guilty in a way but it is all them and not u. if u get the urge, tell them in a level toned and calm voice, straight to the point, "It really upsets me when u guys argue so if u can help it, try not to argue where i can here u" and that's all u say and walk off. oh and say thanks right after. write again and post if u make any progress. Just don't give up. I didn't and i'm ok.
Hi Melbourne...
I also think your father is running away from the family (cheating relationship or no), going everywhere and doing other stuff than being with the family.
The whole family dynamic seems that way. It seems no one is communicating. Your dad gets you stuff, but doesnt care so much that whether you really want it or not...
Your Mom you say is good, which is cool. Can you talk to her about your issues and see what she thinks/feels about everything?
One thing I definitely agree with with LSmith, is to talk to a friend too. And to talk to the parents...sometimes they listen--not always, but sometimes.
Best,
Clyde