Ok here we go. hopefully this won't be to confusing. I'm 23, single and male. Ever since I was little I remember going to 2 different preschools. I remember be extremely rowdy, hyper and sometimes violent to other kids. I never had problems of seeing or hearing things or nothing of that sort. But anyway....Since kindergarden I was always being "tested" pulled out of class and doing like..puzzle's, games, and like quizzes. It was always hard for me to do school work while in class and at home. My grades were horrible and what not..except in gym acourse... when I was in middle school...they started to put me in "smaller" classes... They diagnosed me with ADHD...wich I would probably agree on..in highschool I was getting better "calmer"...I never took medication for it by the way...my grades were better in highschool too..Especially when I was dating my highschool sweetheart...anyway now let's get into the juicy stuff...when I got more mature...I never hurt anyone physically...I was always nice...But when I got mad at something I got really mad...not think right...think of extreme violence...gore and that type of stuff never bothered me either...which it should right? So after highschool I started to smoke marijuana...I never sold or anything just used it for myself..made me feel "better"...it put me down on a slower paced level...after the years I started to smoke a 1/4 ounce a day untill the day came I smoked some unknown with pcp...I attacked my roomy..after he escaped he told me he heard me say stuff about the devil and so on...After that I went into a mental and recovery/ rehab center...I'm glad to say I don't drink or smoke anymore....Anyway...I wear glasses...my parents told me I have bad vision which I do...but I remember when I was smoking....after I started to come down from the high I remember closing my right eye and my vision from my left was extremely shakey...when I opened up my right eye I would get super dizzy and almost black out...I only did this once and that was the night when I attacked my roomy...ever since then I was really worried about that...during the time when I smoked I went to the eye doctors for a new prescription but being an addict like I was I went a little high...I can't believe till this day the doctor didn't say anything...just shows they only care about money.......so anyway....after going through rehab I had the same pair...but my mood was really weird...I was extremely paranoid...I had thoughts of the devil being within me....i also thought my dad was keeping his distance from me like I was a threat to him...I was freakin out...I always kept this to myself..thinking if I told my mother or dad they would send me to a hospital...which I didn't want to go to.... So I had an idea...i remembered the eye thing...and remembered when I got my recent prescription...So I went to the eye doctors and got a new prescription....then all of a sudden..my thoughts started to clear up dramastically...I was extremely happy ...so...Now I'm all about my god and all that happy stuff...but every once in a while I'll have bad dreams...The doctor said I'll have flash backs from the pcp...I don't know if they are it...but I noticed I'll wake up and my one eye will be open and the other closed...but I'll see things...for example...I was laying on my right side...I opened my left eye and looked out the window and seen what it looked to be like a swat team member..but when I lifted my head up and opened my right eye it went away...what the heck is going on with me??? I would really like to talk more about this with someone...but I'm affraid to talk to someone in person...thinking they'll lock me up...I'm starting to think i didn't have adhd and all that testing was due to my left eye?? Do I have something special here or what?? PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!
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Hi greenarcher. Well, no one can be sure what the tests were for in school unless you ask those who were involved. It could be they were checking your IQ or personality...but even that may have been because children with "learning disabilities" are funded at a higher rate than regular students. :(
The brain is trained to give us our best vision when we are vertical and using both eyes. Any alteration of this, such as lying down and peeking with one eye at an area that may have shadowing etc (window) and we won't get a clear view. The brain will "guess" at what it thinks we are seeing. Kind of kewl, huh? But I don't think anything to be concerned about.
You still seem a bit anxious about life and things that go on in your life. It might not be a bad thing to have a therapist to go to from time to time and clear your head about your concerns, and maybe learn how to be calmer all the time.
Good wishes
drjean
I agree with Jean, Green. It could be that you might just think you are seeing things because of the way you are sitting or laying.
I do think, though, because of your anxiety and worry that you may want to see a therapist to help you feel better.
Best,
Clyde