Growing up I was spolied, and got whatever I wanted. I got materalistic things but all i ever really wanted was love. my parents were never affectinate with one another they never said i love you to each other nor their children. I can honestly say that i've never felt loved ever in my life. When i was younger i was very emotionless by that i mean it was hard for me to feel what others were feeling like if a friend was sad i didn't now how to comfort them. Im 20 and i have never been in a relationship part of that is because i been depressed since age 14 and being very insecure with myself. Im not even sure how to love if that makes any sense. Im slowly but surely getting over my depression and learning to love myself because i do want to be in a relationship and be happy. I also have trust issues i don't trust anyone and part of that is because i was sexualy abuse when i was young. I've been through so much with myself in the past that now im just trying to grow and become a better person.