this is kind of awkward and a little difficult to talk about. the farthest i can remember is from when i was seven or eight. he would just make me touch him or he would rub himself against my bottom or in between my thighs. it stopped when i was maybe eleven i think. i never really though about it and now i don't see it as a big deal. in other words i don't consider myself as someone who was "molested"
but i've been thinking about it lately and what bothers me is that whenever he'd do it i never protested or said anything to stop it. i remember when i tried to get up he'd pull me back, but if i really truly wanted it to stop i could've gotten away ...
he wasn't agressive or didn't threaten me. because in a sick way and even though it was my brother i liked when he did it sometimes, but also part of me wanted it to stop.
i don't understand now. and i don't understand why after all these years(im 18 now) its starting to bug me a little
i really dont think it's molestation though. my best friend was molested when she was younger by her cousin and she still has horrible flashbacks of it and sometimes she gets really down and sad and i have to talk to her and be there for her.i've never told her about what happened to me..and i see her situation and i see that as molestation, but i don't think my situation compares to hers at all because i dont have bad dreams about it or any of the other symptoms i looked up or that she has.
i guess i have a couple questions..
was it normal for me to react that way to my own brother, is something wrong with me?
is what happened with me actually molestation ? or am i looking to deep into this ?
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