I'm a 17 year old girl, I'm not a typical teen as I'm just a very closed person due to things that has happened to me as a child. At the age of 6 I've been getting sexually abused by a relative of mine, its been going on from age 6 to age 14. My sisters and I have suffered abuse from this man and we decided to keep it to ourselfs as we didn't want to cause any grief and hurt to anybody in our family. The strange thing is, while I was going through this I wasn't really angry, hurt and upset. I would always just be annoyed at his presence and always thought he was just a filthy man. It wasn't until this whole situation was brought out in to the light and he was arrested for the sexual abuse when I was 14 that I started feeling depressed, sad, angry, hurt and confused. For some reason I only started to feel the pain and hurt after I've gone through everything. And its strange because my sisters are perfectly normal, happy living their lifes having friends/boyfriends. And I'm jjust stuck in my room hating myself and feeling depressed and unconfident. I'm really really confused, every time I cry I end up hating myself even more because I know I shouldn't let it get to me this way but I can't stop it. I've felt this way since I was 14, I just wanna move on and be happy! I can't have a good nights sleep, ever. And I eat more often and lose then gain, lose then gain weight all the time. I just don't know what to do. Please anybody help?