Wow...so ive been pretty strange lately. i have these periods of time where i can be very out of the ordinary [psychologically] and it differs anywhere from a day, to a few weeks.
Like, i'll be thinking of someone like Charles Manson and ill research them, and get to know more about who they were and what not. Then i basically come to the conclusion that theyre only misunderstood, and i can see some similar personalities between me and them. Today for example, i was listening to Charles' music on a cd i made, and i really began to love it, then i started thinking wow....he isnt so strange after all, he's normal, like me.
But right now, im like what the fuck am i thinking? This kind of thing will get deeper sometimes, where i actually sense that i can feel what they did at a point in time.
it gets pretty weird and intense. Today i came across a fan myspace of Charlie, and on it is an adress to "write" to him, i dont know if its actually a real thing or not, but i was actually considering trying it....like...is that messed up? Sometimes i think i could actually befriend someone like him...someone like Dr. Hannibal Lecter...is it weird? am i strange for this? trust me its not just a "phase" this thing has come and gone for a loooonnnnggg time now.
Like, i'll be thinking of someone like Charles Manson and ill research them, and get to know more about who they were and what not. Then i basically come to the conclusion that theyre only misunderstood, and i can see some similar personalities between me and them. Today for example, i was listening to Charles' music on a cd i made, and i really began to love it, then i started thinking wow....he isnt so strange after all, he's normal, like me.
But right now, im like what the fuck am i thinking? This kind of thing will get deeper sometimes, where i actually sense that i can feel what they did at a point in time.
it gets pretty weird and intense. Today i came across a fan myspace of Charlie, and on it is an adress to "write" to him, i dont know if its actually a real thing or not, but i was actually considering trying it....like...is that messed up? Sometimes i think i could actually befriend someone like him...someone like Dr. Hannibal Lecter...is it weird? am i strange for this? trust me its not just a "phase" this thing has come and gone for a loooonnnnggg time now.
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I think they're interesting. You can actually write to him? Strange, I'd probably consider it although I wouldn't really know what to say. (I write horror a lot so that explains my morbid fascination.) I don't really see a problem with it unless you actually want to kill someone, then that's bad, you know. As long as you don't see his "point", then you're good. :)
Speaking from no solid ground myself...
Yeah, it's a little weird, but that doesn't mean it's harmful. A lot of people are interested in serial killers, but unless you can imagine a situation where you'd kill somebody outside of direct self defense, it's probably nothing to worry about. (In fact, worrying about it is probably the worst thing the fact that you get these deep fascinations is doing to you, in my humble opinion.)
Serial killers are fascinating in certain respects. They're human like us, they have desires and even aesthetic senses, and we can see ourselves in them in that way. But at the end of the day, most of us don't want to go out and do the things they did, not really.
Now, if you want to mimic them, that, you need help for. But I've got a feeling you wouldn't be asking this question if you actually wanted to do it.
As long as you're sticking to real morals, where it's wrong to kill or hurt other people, your fascinations don't make you a bad person. It's okay to like weird things. Smart people often look for things that are out of the ordinary, even shocking and horrible, and look at them from new angles. But as long as we keep our feet on the ground and know right from wrong, it's not harmful. Just keep monitoring your morals, and in my humble opinion, you'll be fine.
Of course, as someone who has that sort of fascination myself, maybe I'm not the right person to ask. *Laughs.*
Thanks Clyde, but it would great if another person, or two could give me their input on this. :]
Hi there,
Well, it could just be a preoccupation with that kind of thing, while, a bit morbid, is natural sometimes (for people to be interested in such things).
That doesn't necessarily mean you love it, etc. But I would definitely wonder and worry about it if all the times you "don't act normal," it involves serial murderers, etc.
If it is intensely strong, like it seems here, I would seek some help, yes. But you could (and I mean it as non-morbidly as possible) be interested in that kind of thing, just to see why a person would behave that way.
Decide which side of the fence you are on on that part, and seek help accordingly.
Best,
Clyde