Ever since I was a little girl I always had a very active imagination. I figure this is because I was an only child and had to come up with something to do by myself.
Well, I'm 20 years old now and I haven't grown out of it. Whenever I find myself doing "nothing" my mind trails into imagination land. I think it got really bad after my mom passed away and I had to live with my grandparents. They had a swing and I would sit out there for hours on end, multiple times a day (sometimes in below freezing weather), just swinging and listening to music and making up imaginary scenarios. My imaginary self would have imaginary conversations with imaginary people.
I feel that daydreaming is normal. However, it got to the point that if I didn't have my "daydreaming time" every day, I got pissy -- almost like an addict. Now that I've moved out of my grandparents house I've had to find another way to satisfy my daydreaming. Now, instead of swinging, I go driving. This is a horrible waste of gas and I drive for hours on a nearly daily basis just to satisfy the, uh, "addiction."
Furthermore, I get really into my daydreams. A lot of them are very emotionally charged (like, I get in an argument/fight with someone) and it actually gets me REALLY heated -- even though it was all in my head.
I know that my daydreaming is usually an escape from everyday life. I am the type of person that keeps things in my head: I think before I speak/act, I think about my emotions and analyze them (instead of just saying how I feel), I think of other people and their actions (rather than outwardly question them), any problems (psychologically) I have I keep in my head and they basically swirl around and around. I'm not sure if any of that made sense. I guess what I'm getting at is that I would rather stay in my own head than outwardly do anything. Problem is, I don't know what to do about it.
I have a feeling that this isn't normal and I'm just wondering if anyone else has dealt with this or has advice on what I can do. "Keeping myself busy" doesn't really work because even if I keep PHYSICALLY busy, my mind still wanders -- and it's tough to keep both my and body busy constantly.
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