Avatar Posted by whatever486 228 days ago (Question)
I really don't know where to start because im not sure whats wrong with me. I don't know what to believe, i have conflicting beliefs and i dont know what to chose. One of the certain things is that im an agnostic, i dont know if there is or isnt a god and if so how do you prove it. Frankly i don't care if there is a god and this leads to one of my uncertainies. I am a nihilist, i believe that everything is nothing, there are no values, morals, ethics and existance is meaningless. When im alone im my true self and then im very pessimistic. Anouther certain belief is that im a prespectiveist, this kindof goes along with nihilism as i believe that nothing is exact(by that i mean that everything can not be exact and i mean that nothingness is the only thing exact), everything is relitive, nothing was(again i mean that i afew ways) we gave nothing(aka everything) a defination and/or meaning. Recantly ive also look in to Solipsism, i mean really how do we know whats real besides our own thoughts. Though i also think that independant thought doesn't exist because what are we but a bunch of molecules reacting randomly which porduces what we call thought. Im introverted to the point that i overthink allmost everthing and i also froget alot of my past, and i also sometimes mixup what i thought and what i did. Sometimes i think i have major depression(half of me wants me to be depressed where the other dosen't) thought i may be bipolar because i do have elevated moods and energy. I really want to kill my self sometimes because i know we all are going to die and become nothing. Of course i haven't yet and thats partally because im undesided about it(though by continueing to live im i saying that im 50.00000000...1% for liveing and 49.99999...% for death). Along with that my reason for lving is simpally to watch humans pointlessly try and delay the end and "better" the world. Personally i hate humans because we think we are great when we aren't and we are also ruining this planet. Due to this i also think im psycotic or insane(and again part of me wants to be). I don't like my life much, and i watch alot of anime and sometimes fantasize that im in that world because they are more eventfull, intresting and i realy like the remantic part of them. Though there is still a part of me that somewhat enjoys living and wants to delay my death eventhough i know im going to die. From all this there is always conflict inside me and i dont what to do about it and thats why im have. These are most of my actual thoughts so i hope you can help me, but if not it doesn't really matter because ill die eather way.


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Written by misscris 228 days ago Rating: 1 | Rate Answer: + -

Unfortunately, none of this is an answer that can be given by another because only the individual can determine their truth faith and what to believe in. Personally, I have faith in God and do not view my life as nothing or pointless. I do believe a person that has no belief in anything will find life useless and have more problems with depression and anxiety than others and often find themselves in a quandry... like you have.

This is not an answer anyone can give you.

The only thing I can say is taking your life is not the answer.

Cris

Written by Athlaos 228 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

Everyone who answers this could give you their own beleifs on life, but the fact remains that each one will be different. As Cris says, you must learn and decide what your beliefs are. It would not be appropriate of me to tell you what the 'right' thing is to believe, much as I might enjoy doing that.

You do sound somewhat depressed. If they are mentally healthy, humans naturally want to live and be happy, even if they are nihilist, pessimist, or solopist. I suspect you have some form of illness that should be treated with medication and therapy. Of course you were expecting that answer, though.

Written by Clyde 212 days ago Rating: 0 | Rate Answer: + -

I agree with the posters. YOU yourself must decide what is most important to you in your own beliefs and go from there.

There are points to everything in life, and there are reasons. You may not know that now, but you will find out.

Maybe you should seek therapy? It could be beneficial and help point you more in the right "belief" path you want to find.

Best,

Clyde


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