Ever since I was in high School Ive been having what I call "breakdowns" because I dont know what else to call them. They ususally happen when Im under alot of stress or there is too much going on around me- but I usually find myself having a panic attack before I have one.
If I dont get out of the situation, I'll go into what I call a "breakdown". When I have one, the room feels like its spinning, everything looks blurry, and I see sparkly things flying in the air (kind of like someone was shaking glitter and its falling everywhere). When someone talks to me it sounds very loud and everything feels like its in slow motion. Its very scary and it feels like my brains shutting down when it happens. After I have one I sit and stare and I cant really function that well, because I feel like my mind feels like mush.
I dont know what this would be called or what it is. Im scared to talk to a doctor about it because Im scared theyre going to think Im crazy. I dont want to be highly medicated. I had to quit my job in the past month because of both the panic attacks and the "breakdowns," because they were happening on shift and at home as well.
I know that it was genetic... my birth mother used to get the same things.. but she was never properly diagnosed. I was adopted and she sealed her records before she committed suicide back in 2001, so I have no real way of finding out if she ever was diagnosed as well. The way I know she had the same problem is that my adoptive family took her in after she had me, and took her to a local crisis unit to get her help. I do believe either Bipolar or borderline personality runs in my family- because Ive been diagnosed with both and I act exactly like my mother.
Also- recently I found my biological sister- shes 4 years younger than me, and she has autism. I looked autism up online, I feel Im too outgoing to be it- but Im not really sure. I do know that it ran on my mothers side, I found out from her family.
If anyone could help me if they know anything or have heard anything like this, please contact me back on here or email me at ManicLN187@aol.com
Thank you
If I dont get out of the situation, I'll go into what I call a "breakdown". When I have one, the room feels like its spinning, everything looks blurry, and I see sparkly things flying in the air (kind of like someone was shaking glitter and its falling everywhere). When someone talks to me it sounds very loud and everything feels like its in slow motion. Its very scary and it feels like my brains shutting down when it happens. After I have one I sit and stare and I cant really function that well, because I feel like my mind feels like mush.
I dont know what this would be called or what it is. Im scared to talk to a doctor about it because Im scared theyre going to think Im crazy. I dont want to be highly medicated. I had to quit my job in the past month because of both the panic attacks and the "breakdowns," because they were happening on shift and at home as well.
I know that it was genetic... my birth mother used to get the same things.. but she was never properly diagnosed. I was adopted and she sealed her records before she committed suicide back in 2001, so I have no real way of finding out if she ever was diagnosed as well. The way I know she had the same problem is that my adoptive family took her in after she had me, and took her to a local crisis unit to get her help. I do believe either Bipolar or borderline personality runs in my family- because Ive been diagnosed with both and I act exactly like my mother.
Also- recently I found my biological sister- shes 4 years younger than me, and she has autism. I looked autism up online, I feel Im too outgoing to be it- but Im not really sure. I do know that it ran on my mothers side, I found out from her family.
If anyone could help me if they know anything or have heard anything like this, please contact me back on here or email me at ManicLN187@aol.com
Thank you
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Hi there,
It definitely sounds to me like anxiety attacks and depression. You do want to see a therapist, as soon as possible. Not every time (and I of course cannot guarantee it for you) does a person who sees a therapist gets medication, and not every time a person gets medication do they get a lot of it.
Sometimes it can be one or two pills, or even five. But you need to think, as well, do you want to live this way the rest of your life, or do you want the chance to get better?
Best,
Clyde
I am not a doctor by any means, but I have worked in a psychiatric hospital for 8 years. It sounds like you are having some anxiety issues which is very common with Bipolar disorder. I would talk to the dr. they will not think you're crazy, trust me. Hope this helps you can email me at silencedangelofdarkness@yahoo.com if you need anything.