I've always been a person that likes solitude. I usually prefer to be alone than to be around others but at the same time I find myself rather lonely on occasion especially when it comes to romantic relationships. I want to be with someone and I know I could but for some reason when I start to get close to a woman I begin to feel smothered rather quickly. It's as though when I get in a relationship it feels like it's not as good as it should be no matter how good it is, like I have some sort of unrealistic expectation of love and this really bothers me. It's as though I think a good relationship will cure my problems with depression even though I know that's not how things work.