Recently, within the last month or so, I've noticed that I've become rather apathetic towards things in life, or something similar to it. It's kind of hard for me to explain exactly, but I'll try.
I used to be a lot more emotional and caring about people. Up until a couple years ago, I used to get pretty depressed, too, for various reasons, like feeling left out from my friends and loneliness, etc. Nearly two years ago, though, I started to just not get as depressed about stuff. There wasn't any change in things, but I guess just my outlook on them. It didn't really matter to me as much. And now, I don't get depressed at all. But the problem I find is, I don't really ever get that sad, or even that angry. I might for about 30 seconds, and then just get over it. I used to be a really easy crier, but now I can barely get tears out for too long.
Now, this may sound dandy to some, since feeling sad never seems to be a good thing. And now I smile a lot and usually have a happy disposition, and have become more outgoing as well. But I wonder whether it's real or not. I just feel so detached from the world sometimes, and feel inhuman. I don't really care at all about other people's problems like I used to. I used to feel something for them, sympathy or sadness. But now, it just sort of goes over my head, it never sinks in. And I'm really not sure why.
Is it possible that this is just something gradual that did start that couple of years ago? Or could it be something more recent? Because a few months ago, I found that my closest friend was actually a chronic liar, and I never even realized it. And when I caught her in a huge lie because she was hiding something from me, I told her that she didn't need to do that, because we're closer than that, and that she could tell me anything. She apologized for it, but then continued to lie about it right afterwards.
It really hurt me. I had already started to not trust people as much before, but after that, I started to not trust anyone and was always skeptical about anything anyone would say. So, I don't know if that would be the cause of how I am now, or if it's the gradual thing from a couple years ago.
So, does anyone know the reason for this? If anyone has known someone with this problem or gone through it themselves, I'd appreciate any feedback. I'd just like to know if I have some actual problem, and if it's something I can fix. Because I don't like this feeling of being 'inhuman', and I think I'd rather feel sadness than nothing at all.
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