i think this developed when i turned 12, i don't know how this developed and i also want to know how that happened. in highschool and college, i was also experiencing the same thing and i know that I'm not doing it on purpose and i don't want to, it just happens, like its my nature. Because of that, i had problems when it comes to relating with people, socializing, but i have friends and i'm not like this when I'm with them.
I thought possessing the attitude was fine, not until i started working because it wouldn't be fine having employees in your company who's not themselves at times... yes! i always look stupid, like you always don't know what to do and what to say, now I'm experiencing low self esteem, depression and it seems like i'm not confident at all in everything that i say. am i sick? is there any drug that i could take? thanks!
I thought possessing the attitude was fine, not until i started working because it wouldn't be fine having employees in your company who's not themselves at times... yes! i always look stupid, like you always don't know what to do and what to say, now I'm experiencing low self esteem, depression and it seems like i'm not confident at all in everything that i say. am i sick? is there any drug that i could take? thanks!
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Hi Chris! Can you be more descriptive about how you feel when you think you aren't "feeling yourself?" Some people describe that in different ways, like they are looking out from behind their eyes, or that they just feel numb, or detached, or they hear their own thoughts like not before...etc. If you can explain what you are experiencing, then I can give better suggestions.
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drjean
hi drjean! thanks for the respond, well let me see, when i'm not myself, i more likely to be numb, like for example, there was this instance that i was feeling blank again, if you know what i mean... i really don't want to be in that situation, i'm avoiding that... i mean really, but again, there was i... blank. then people around me were starting to bring my attention back. i did. but it seems like i'm having the most unusual respond...like i would just stay put, more like i wasn't responding to them,i hope you get that. also, way back in school, unlike other people, i had to be extra attentive when it comes to roll call like i should be 100% focused to my professor, i shouldn't be distracted at all, i shouldn't let even anyone draw my attention or else, i'll be totally lost. i kinda had that feeling of detachment to people every now and then, maybe because of my wierd way. most times, i don't find funny things/situations funny but the other way around works for me. so far i haven't been hearing my own thoughts yet. by the way. am i still fine? normal? because this has been really affecting me. i really want to know whats wrong with me.
Hi Chris,
I have read your story, and I do think that you need to see a different therapist--not the school therapist whom you used to see.
Lots of people have bad issues with a doctor/therapist/gp/etc. from time to time, yet realize that doctors are not all bad.
I really hope you find one that helps you soon.
Best,
Clyde
Clyde,
yeah i get that, it's just at that time i have no choice because if I'm gonna get something real at that time, then of course my parents would know about it right?
thanks for the advice!
Chris
Although your not very clear about what it is that you are doing that makes you act out of character, i have an understanding about what you are talking about. I have experienced the same feeling of not feeling myself and as if there is something wrong with me since i was a young child. becoming shy around strangers but being fine around my friends ect.. it wasn't until i received counselling recently that it became clear that my symptoms were all signs of anxiety and fear. from what you say it seems that you fear making yourself look stupid in front of people and the anxiety of that makes your head cloudy and act, in your perspective,out of character. i think maybe if you looked up the information on anxiety you maybe able to relate to it and it maybe helpful. also if you went to see your doctor and explain that the situation is effecting your life he maybe able to help.
hi there bean! so you had your counselling? where? i had my counselling at my university( by the way i'm a fresh graduate) and honestly, the counselling that i had in school wasn't really helping at all. anyway how was it? are you better now, have you overcomed it? am not really familiar anxiety, am just gonna check on that later, thank you very much... really appreciate it.