My husband insists on sleeping on the couch, at first he made it seem like it was me.. I argues and he need a break.. Well one night I had to go to the bathroom and he was in our living room giving himself pleasure... It hurt me so bad.. It was like he was with another woman.. He became very angry and didn't want to talk to me.. I was telling him that he doesn't have to do this, that I am here to satisfy him.. But he acts like he doesn't want me... He uses marijuana and probably something else.. He often leaves at night..He uses all the vaseline...He even gets to the point in the evening he'll say, "ok honey, its time for you to go to bed, and don't forget to lock the door.." I have peeked from under the door and watched him smoking his blunt and stroking his penis, makes my heart race and i feel so rejected.. i feel like a fool.. but he makes me feel like its his body why am i mad..? how should i feel.. am i being selfish or over-reacting..