My husband and I went out for four years and recently got married. But for the past three years, the thought of having sex with him absolutely repulsed me. He's getting frustrated with me, and I gave him permission to sleep with someone else so long as they don't have an STD, but he told me that he only wanted me. I love him, but sex hurts so much, it smells, it's inconvenient, it's messy, and I just do not do not, do NOT want to be touched. I don't even want to be kissed anymore. What's wrong with me?