Here is my story. I was married for many years and had two children. The marriage wasn't perfect but, I guess no marriage is. My husband was a good provider and he was not abusive in any way. I just fell out of love with him over time. Anyway, after the kids grew up and moved on with their lives, I left my husband for another man. I had been seeing him on and off for many years. I hurt my husband very badly which he didn't deserve. Now I am living with this other man. He was married before also and still has a young daughter who lives with us 15 days a month. I love this man with all my heart, and he swears that he loves me. But he is one of those people who is always right about everything and, therefore, I am always wrong. His daughter is exactly like him, so I now go through each and every day feeling like a stupid, worthless human being. Nothing I do is ever good enough. I can't even fold the towels right or make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich right. And in their eyes, I'm the worst driver on the face of this earth (meanwhile, I have a perfectly clean driving record). And there has been a new development (or should I say, a new demand) in my life. My man has decided that we should try swinging to add some spice to our sex life. So, you can imagine how that makes me feel. Now I feel even more worthless, like I can't please my man in bed so he has to go elsewhere. He really shouldn't have any complaints. We have sex everyday, sometimes more than once. But that's apparently not good enough. I feel like I am being punished for being a bad person. I keep wondering if there is someone out there who would be satisfied with "just me". Then I realize that I had that once and lost it. So, this must be my punishment. Through the course of my divorce, I lost all of my friends, most of my family, all of my money and possessions. I feel so lost. I have nowhere to go. I have no one to talk to. Do I just swallow my pride and face my punishment? I don't really have much choice as I see it.
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