First and foremost: I think real rape is absolutely, 100% wrong.

Secondly: I was never raped or molested. No one in my family was raped or molested.

Ever since I was a child, I remember being interested in rape. In elementary school, before I knew what sex or masturbation was, I was drawn to it.

I am now 27 years old and the only way I can achieve orgasm is by thinking about rape or watching some kind of rape porn. It has been this way for at least 6 years. It is the same whether I am alone or with a partner. It can be physical, forcible rape or more of an abuse of power rape without force, such as a teacher/student role.

Is this considered some kind of fetish? Is it normal to only be able to orgasm by thinking about a specific action? Do you think I should attempt something to change this?


Answers


bella
1047 days ago
Since these fantasies are interfering with your ability to orgasm otherwise, then yes you should get help with this because you don't want to be boxed in. As long as it doesn't end up hurting another person(ex. watching a live rape of someone else) then it would be okay. It could be you're into S&M - sadomasochistic behavior and this should be done in a controlled safe atmosphere with consenting adults.



Hoseki
971 days ago
I giggled while reading and replying to your post. Yes, you are perfectly normal. A fantasy is exactly what it is, a fantasy. I actually get off imagining that I am a male being raped by another male and vice versa. I won't even go into the other crazy stuff I think about to get off. Like you, I would never want these things to happen to me in real life...except maybe in consensual roleplay. I think it's a perfect example of your dark/shadow side. The part of you that needs releasing or you truly will go crazy. lol

You need to get a hold of some good books that will tell your about the thousands of other women who get off on all sorts of crazy stuff. I would recommend my favorite, "Getting Off" by Jayme Waxmen. This book may give you some ideas how to extend your sexual play to achieve orgasms in many ways or even accompany your current favorite.