Hi, I am a male and I'm about to be 24. I am on my own, I have a nice job, and I am living comfortably. I have a female friend who is one year younger than me and who I've known for over eight years now, we talk a lot. Ever since four years ago I have been deeply in love with her. Two years ago, I told her my feelings and she flipped out because she use to date my second cousin back in high school. So to her, seeing me in that light was not only gross, but not even acceptable. We did not talk for almost a year until I called and lied to her about not being in love with her anymore. To this day, she thinks I only see her as a friend. I think about her everyday and I wish I wasn't attracted to her. My love for her is so strong and it hurts so bad that most times I want to cry. On a personal note, any time I masterbate I think of her every time. Is there any way to overcome this obstacle in my life?? I even met another woman who I am friends with, but I have put her below the one I love. Am I doomed???