im 17 soon to be 18 ive never had a father that cared about me all he did was beat my mom and me and came at me with a knife im loseing my home ive known my entire life and my gf broke up with me said i was too clingy but all i did wrong was want to spend too much time with her i cared for her bought her things just to see her smile did things with her i was scaerd to do because i knew she wanted to do it and one day we were sitting on the couch cuddleing with each other holding hads her head laying on my shoulder she looked up locked eyes with me and kissed me my first kiss and then the next day she just leaves me.. ive never felt this pain before... its crippleing i dont feel a need to wake up in the morning to move to breathe to eat to do anything but sit in one spot and wait for death to take its hold on me everything in my life that was ever good is gone i cant remember a time when i was happy for more then a few months at a time i dont know what to do what im going to do i just im stretched beyond my means and im breaking i dont know whats right anymore whats true whats false all i know is pain and it hurts and this is a new brand of pain thats killing me and i dont know how to fight this war by myself and im loseing please help me.. im so confused


Answers


Chemar
747 days ago
Hi Jayden

I am sorry to hear things are still so stressful and depressing for you.

Have you been able to see a doctor yet?

Please also remember the forum section here as that really may be a support group that can really help you more than we can. There are other young people there too and it would be good for you to be able to talk with others who understand. Just click COMMUNITY top right of the page to register for the forums



justtosaywhatsinmyhead
742 days ago
hey jaden ive been through the same thing it sucks i know but ull eventually get over it



EllenCharlotte
739 days ago
Jayden,

First things first, you need to stop focusing on your ex and why she broke up with you, what you need to do is focus on yourself, if you don't love youfelf others will not follow suit, you blame your dad for your problems and he deserves a good blame BUT he is also the reason you feel how you do with your ex, your father was horrid to you and you need something you can count on to be there for you (why you seemed so clingy with your ex) what you need to do is find something your good at, love it about yourself, brag about it, just be self centered, then when you have that under wraps and are more confident within yourself you can always try getting yourself back in the dating game. Untill then, make youself a god.



Jayden
682 days ago
im sorry i never got to see this post at the time the site kept telling me i couldnt post things and then i couldnt log on so i just now have been able to log on im sorry i never responded

...anyway update since this post anymore im just loseing sleep in the past 2 weeks ive slept maybe 2-4 days if that im not eating much and i feel nothing really anymore just numb i wake up in the morning on the days i do sleep and find it hard to even sit up my first thought is why... why should i .. why dont i just lay here and stop breatheing or why dont i get up and swallow a bottle of pills why do i cling to the stupid place.. honestly a thought that passed me the other day was why do i stay here breathing air someone else could use and auctally do something right with their life.. i feel like im just wasteing space and air anymore i just feel numb