I don't understand the feelings I am having. My children have given me an ultimatum to leave the man I am seeing since he has assaulted me at leave 6 times and is very controlling and emotionally abusive. I dread when he comes home at night. But the idea of really cutting it off for good makes me cry. I don't know why I would want to continue this madness. He does know how to suck me back in, I just wish I was stronger in standing against it. I have been told I am attractive, get many looks by men even in my 40's but I have this fear I will be alone. But I don't want this pain anymore. The abuse was so bad he needs to register as a predator for 10 years for what he did to me. Now you're thinking I am really crazy, right. Why do I love him? Why do I worry about him, when he doesnt' seem to care much about my well being. HELP!!!!