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Avatar Posted by zanzivar 121 days ago (Question)
I'm in an awful way! My brother committed suicide yesterday! All along it was I who had thoughts of committing suicide. Now I wonder if I should have gone and maybe my brother would still be here. I thought that I had a contract to commit suicide and now it is so weird that it has happened within my family! I am flabberghasted, stunned, confused Read More »
Avatar Posted by zanzivar 144 days ago (Question)
Belacutie and Edhan, I need your help badly please. I have had two horrific days of suicidal thoughts and my energy is really low at the moment. Read More »
Avatar Posted by zanzivar 209 days ago (Question)
I keep getting flashbacks about being beaten up and raped by a doctor when I was 15 years of age. He was giving me a medical and he kept saying that he had to check every part of my body. One day when I wouldn't do what he asked he hit me really hard across the face and I fell and hit my head off his table. I blacked out for a bare second and whe Read More »
Avatar Posted by zanzivar 214 days ago (Question)
I think that I am in love with my mental health counselor and the doctor too. I think about them all the time and am only happy after visiting them. They have been so kind after my illness and it is the only place that I feel safe in. However, I think that I am now obsessed with them. I can't seem to last a week now without them and I dream about Read More »