I have been wanting to be sick for the longest time. I just need something to be wrong with me. I don't know why, but I want to be in therapy. I have some early symptoms of schizophrenia, but I'm not sure if I'm just blowing things out of proportion. I don't know what to do. I have been talking to myself and feeling as if people are inside my thoughts and can read my mind, but I don't know if I'm just so obsessed over wanting to be "insane" that I'm just making it out worse than it really is. I sometimes feel like people are watching me and can see what I'm doing against my will and I bugs me enough that I have to tell the presences in the my head to go away and leave me alone.

I've had really bad headaches lately and a vertigo-like sensation in my peripheral vision. I also have been feeling a sense of depersonalization and/or derealization a lot lately. Please help me explain my symptoms.


3600 days ago
You don't have to have schizophrenia to be in therapy. Why don't you consult several therapists until you find one you click with, and you can talk over your concerns there? Many people go into therapy to address their worries; you don't have to be "insane" to go.

3599 days ago
Yes, please go to therapy, you don't need any excuses to go. A therapist will give you an outsider's view on what may be upsetting you to have these thoughts.

take care

3599 days ago
Hi there...

Go to a medical doctor first. I know you want to go to a doctor anyways, and the doctor can rule out any medical diseases.

Then, when the MD doesn't (and he may or may not) find anything wrong with you, you can then go on to a therapist who can help you with your other issues.

You really do need to see both, it appears. Please seek help soon.



3427 days ago
hi...i am going through the same thing....i constantly have been searching mental illness....they say i am "delusional" but i cant seem to trust anyones thoughts these days... i dont know whats real anymore...i have taken tests and i show signs for multiple mental illnesses....someone later suggested that it is all in my head and i really dont have anything and that upsets me....because that too is beliveable....if you find out any helpfull information about what you are going through please let me know because it might help me too.

3303 days ago
I feel just the same way, i feel i have no one i can talk to, it's like i want to be sick so i can go to therapy, i did before but i was so damn stupid i stopped, cause i felt like no one thought i really had problems...