I don't know if it's just my age or something else, but I wonder everyday, will there every be a guy out there in this world that would love me. Every wedding I go to, it makes me happy to see a man and a woman so happy with one another, and in love; but it also makes me sad when I look at my life. In our culture, we do arranged marriages, and I had just found out that my cousin (that is 1 year younger than me) is already having calls from parents for her to marry their sons. I feel so sad. I have 5 older brothers (no sisters), and now 4 of my brothers have married off to the women of their hearts, and during every wedding, I have grown up every time, and that is how I have fell in love with the beauty of weddings. It is just so beautiful (the weddings are in my opinion). My favourite part is their first dance as a couple (at the wedding's reception), it's just so beautiful when you see the twinkle in both of their eyes as they both look into each other's eyes, it just shows the truth of love. It shows how love between your soul mate, is the most beautiful thing in the world. Also, I have never had friends when I was growing up, so it's really been hard for me to find love. I just wish I had someone that loved and cared for me, a specialy type of caring. I've never had that before. And in my family, I don't know if they truly love me, or that they have to love me because I'm there in their life. I've always wished for my family and I to go somewhere or do something together, but they just don't seem to be a very "huggy" type of family. I'm a very active, enthusiastic individual, and I just love doing sports, running, and just love being active. And I just wish I had a specialy guy to share those kind of intersts with. I just love seeing life, but's it's not much fun if you can't find that special someone to share it with.
